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Thursday, May 30, 2013

It's coming to my end of detachment.

Just another 12 more days I be back.

This few days I am at my lowest point in life.

I lose my love of my life.

I don't think I am such a emotional person. I don't think I have ever wake up in the middle of the night crying, feeling scare.

I never felt so painful before.

Maybe before I really taken things so lightly. But when the moment I know how to treasure it's too late.

Every moment I felt and flash back to think the pain is so unbearable.

I have never ever tot of letting go the relationship. Maybe I am just being protective.

Maybe all the while I just want to seek some attention.

Maybe sometime I just want feel the care and love.

I am 6000 away from singapore for 5weeks. I felt so lonely and there are no 1 out there for me. I just felt that I am in a dark room. Trying to reach out but it's all dark.

Colleague have asked how am I. How come I am not how I use to be when I came here.

How should I tell them?

This is not a normal relationship?

Ytd night I just sit in the toilet and cried for 3 hours. Stating at the wall with a blank mind.

The detachment Commander actually came to me and speak with me last night. He hope that things dont affect my work. He told me that coming to this kind of detachment is not a chances that comes by easily. Knowing that 5 weeks away from home is not a simple thing we totally need the support of our family and love 1.

I totally agree with him but I really don't have the support from anyone. I don't dare to call back home becoz I don't wan my family to worry abt me.

I am sorry if I am not as strong as everyone see.

I am really a weak lion now.

A lion which really feel like dying.

While writing this post my tears just flow down.

Signing off Andy lai.

posted at 12:36 PM by Andywangzi

Thursday, May 16, 2013

I dunno how many days I been here.

I lost track of it.

But over the weekends I been to Sydney.

Darling harbour.

The place is very cool.

And most importantly. There are lots of shopping to be done.

I spend almost $400 sing. Crazy shopping.

I got a helicopter. Omg. Damn cool.

So Sunday I stayed in hotel.

Rest, gym and night time we played with our helicopter.

Monday till date

There is nothing much for me to so. Just loading operation and supervising.

After my work I will go to gym without fail.

Dinner.

And I will drink a glass of red wine.

And then go to bed.

It sounds like a healthy lifestyle. But it's rather boring.

Haha.

I just got the portable wifi. And now I get to dota. At least there is something for me to do.

I hope that everyone is having a good week.

Everyone can still whatsapp me via singapore number. I got line as well. I don't mind FaceTime.

And I am rather boring everyday. So please contact me anytime u like.

My time here is 2hours faster then singapore. So take note.

Hugs and hope to see you guys

posted at 10:07 AM by Andywangzi

Saturday, May 11, 2013

Day 4 here.

Nothing much to talk abt already.

There is really nothing for me to do.

But I finally ask 1 of the pilot what can I do.

It coz a big huha becoz that pilot didnt plan my job and his boss very unhappy and scolded him. Sorry. I am too bored. I need to do something. I am not here for a holiday. So...

Anyway, had my dinner at a pizza place. Nice pizza and ribs. Love it.

Went to the gym after to keep for a little. I wan to maintain my body. I don't wan to go out of shape after the detachment. Haha.

And after gym is drink session with the team. Had a few bottle of beer, but I went to bed early becoz we are going to Sydney. That's all for my today story.

Have a good weekend guys. Hugs.

posted at 5:51 PM by Andywangzi

Friday, May 10, 2013

3rd day being here.

Omg. The resort breakfast is so good. Really enjoying this resort.

For work.

In fact there is nothing much for me to do.

Coz it's just their preparation day.

So for my job will only activate when there is flying.

Ended work at 3pm.

Changed and went for shopping.

Omg. There are so many things I tempted to buy.

Had out Asian food for my dinner.

It's very expensive but the food here is really good.

I had wanton, roast pork noodle.

Went back to hotel. Feeling abit fat, so I went to the gym.

I kept turning and can't sleep, turn on the TV. It's hobbit and I missed that movie.

So i started watching.

Find the movie quite boring lei, dunno why so many ppl say its good.

And that ends my days. Good night everyone.

posted at 12:10 PM by Andywangzi

Thursday, May 9, 2013

Day 2 here.

Landed at Richmond at abt 1500hrs. Aust time.

Gone thru some briefing.

And went to the resort. The resort is quite cool. With gym, swimming pool golf course and snooker table.

I went to their local super market call woolworths and get my SIM card and did some shopping.

Now I am 3G contactable.

I had my dinner at this dinner place.

You guys might think their India food won't be that nice. But amazingly their good is really good.

U dont think I can find such a good curry in singapore.

Had ice cream for dessert, 1 scoop of ice cream is only 3.90aust.

Cheap and good ! Plus in the cold weather it won't melt.

Ok. That's all for my day.

Hugs.

posted at 2:45 PM by Andywangzi

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Yo reader.
I am at Australia now. Safely landed at Darwin for transiting.
Will be flying off to Richmond tml morning.

It's the 1st day here.
And I already felt lots of different.
Traveling with friends and traveling for work is 3 different kind of experience.

Anyway. I had dinner at Australia hot breath.
The portion here is really big. I had to order their down size. LoL.
But so far the food is good.

Hope tml will be a better day. Signing off. 070513.

posted at 4:26 PM by Andywangzi